The intensive clearing, nervous system updating has been going on and continues intensifying. There are shifts we can finally sense and recognize, relating to our emotional reactions, patterns, and even getting closer to physical realms.
When I had great clarity two days ago, I was able to experience for hours what it felt like to own my crown, seeing and feeling my emotions and experiences with my own energy, while at the same time feeling the intensity of collective energy and thoughtforms that usually trigger me and make me lose my center. Even just being able to stay for a few hours in this clarity anchored a new level of grounding in my nervous system. Later, the chaotic anxiety kicked in again.
I sat down to look at this anxiety. To my surprise, I saw my grandpa’s energy occupying my space, taking over my crown. I started to recognize that the anxiety around lacking basic life skills and feeling incapable comes from him. I surely have a lot of matching insecurities and fears to hold his energy in my space.
When I looked at his energy deeper, I saw him as a baby in the womb, then a boy, then himself as my grandpa again. He was in this oval-shaped energetic space, trying to push the energetic wall but kept getting bounced back, trapped. He was trapped in trauma energy and kept coming back to the certain lifetime of this trauma.
My reaction before would be to try to “heal” him. But now, I look at this soul process with absolute fascination. It becomes very neutral, a process I suppose any soul needs to go through, for so many times. Witnessing this is powerful and enough, for me and for him.
I will continue to meditate on separating his energy from my experiences, not in a way to ditch him in suffering, but to live out my authentic journey and potential. This would free his energy to do the same, develop authentic solutions for his journey, to finally find skills and strength so that the trauma energetic wall dissolves, and he can enter new experiences with the trauma transformed into meaning, wisdom, and broader perspective.
Everything fascinating happens every day. Sometimes we can only sense it in the inner world, sometimes as an energetic shift—opportunities opening, changes happening, and new choices emerging may project as very painful experiences. Why do we choose it? Not just our Soul, which is already in a state of bravery and wholeness, chooses it, but our personality also chooses it. Because on a deeper level, we sense and touch the light, the life, the more authentic self. These are what all these difficult choices are leading to.
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